2018 New Year Resolutions

It's back to work in Marudi again after much drinking, eating and merry making throughout the last week of December 2017. The horrible year passed just like that and I am excited going on to year 2018! The dream of becoming a stay at home dad might just become a reality for me. The thought of not getting up at freaking four in the morning to catch the five-o'clock Hilux transport every Mondays is excitingly been waiting for. Even the feeling of going to work in this dreaded place in unbearable. I am dragging my feet to get my attires ready for Marudi trip every week.

I shamefully admitted I had have too much of durians. The great ones. Nothing substandard ones shall enter my palate. I am going off tangent now. I want to talk about my 2018 New Year Resolutions.

Financially, I am not doing too good despite bringing home RM4,000 a month. A thousand goes to pay the utilities bills, another one goes to pay my Marudi's expenses, another goes to pay for my boys' chauffeur's salary and some miscellaneous expenses. Despite not drinking alcoholic drinks, not smoking, no clubbing, no buying video games, no buying magazines, hardly buying clothes and shoes, I am left with a couple of not-too-good hundreds ringgits. I, however do buy Malaysian shares. I lost two thousand of ringgits in year 2016. And break even in year 2017. The initial seed money would have give me a quite substantial amount of money if only I parked the money in the fixed deposits. All the efforts of doing great job in my current career had gone unappreciated.

So, I aspire to take leave from my current job to gain back my confidence. My self value. My life goal.

I want to build a better family relationship. As I come home only every Friday, I did not get to see my family most of the week. I miss the days of playing cards with my boys. I want to see more of my girl walking around the house as she is getting hold of herself better. I want to know who is the bully in Darrien's school. I want to know if my boy is playing beside the dirty stagnant drains. I want to know who is my boys' friends. I want to write more Chinese characters with my son. I want to hear Jacob's reading his sentences in Malay, English and Mandarin. I cannot do all these activities since I am away from home.